Today, Lia gives you a (long) update on our life and mental health. We’ll be doing this more often, to leave a record of our progress Who am I? My name is Olympe, but more specifically Lyli. I have been diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder (DID). It’s a disorder that develops during childhood as a result of trauma and is characterized by two or more distinct identities within one body called Alters. I am Lyli, the host of our system (the alter that is most often present among all our alters). So, I manage the networks and the channel the most. But you can find some of the alters from our system (called Olympe) in several videos that are already available!
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Hi everyone, today we are here for a new video that I wanted to make for some time now. It’s an update video about our life, our mental health, and our system. I’m making this video to have a little chat with you, it won’t be highly edited, we’re just here to chat. Let me introduce myself, my name is Lia, you may have seen me before but I haven’t done a proper introduction. I will talk a little more in detail about everything after this. First, how are you all doing? Well, we’re doing pretty well at the moment, even though we’re going through a weird period. I’m feeling very anxious right now, with these anxieties, but I can’t pinpoint exactly why I’m feeling anxious, even though I think it’s related to work. I also think that the anxiety comes from the fact that I have just come out of a very tough period during winter. Winter is a very difficult time for me and for other alters in our system because we have experienced some really tough things. Moreover, there is a lot less sunlight during winter, and sunlight really has an impact on your health, it’s not a myth. It’s also a time when we are sort of locked indoors and I, who used to live alone, was feeling quite lonely. We had to stop many things that we had started during winter, for example, sign language classes that I hope to resume soon. We have been feeling very overwhelmed, and we haven’t streamed much on Twitch. We have also had some setbacks with certain things that we had previously overcome, but we’ll talk about that a little later. Before talking about the system or anything else, there is something I wanted to share with you. I don’t know if you are familiar with Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, I know it’s controversial, but I can relate to it a lot, so I will use it as a basis for what I’m going to tell you. I’ll include a little drawing of it for you. It’s a pyramid that represents the basic needs at the bottom, like sleep, food, water, shelter, etc. As we fulfill the needs at the bottom, we can move on to the higher needs, like self-esteem or self-actualization. For example, as long as you don’t feel safe, don’t have enough to eat, or don’t sleep well, and the basic needs are not met, you won’t be able to work on the things above because your fundamental needs are not fulfilled. Until recently, about a year and a half ago, we couldn’t even see the base of the pyramid because we weren’t eating enough, we weren’t sleeping well, and we didn’t have the security of a home, as we were constantly moving from one place to another and didn’t know where we would sleep the next day. So that pyramid was completely empty for us, and we were in a perpetual survival mode. But now, we are realizing that we are slowly filling that pyramid, and it feels so good. We are realizing that we are healing, although I’m not fully healed, not at all. But I am in the process of healing and I can see it because there are so many things that I couldn’t do before when I was in survival mode, and now I can do them. It’s such a satisfying feeling because after a year, our brain is finally understanding that our needs have been met and that we are safe. So, I can see a huge difference in terms of my personal development, which is supposed to happen when you are a teenager, but it’s happening very late for me. It’s like I had to be an adult at a very young age and now that I am safe, my brain is trying to make up for the lost years. As a result, now we are finally ready to see a therapist, which is something we have talked about before but haven’t been able to do. It’s important to know that, as we mentioned before, we have been seeking help and support, but we weren’t really getting the proper treatment, in the sense that we didn’t have a psychiatrist. We have seen psychologists and psychiatrists in emergency situations when we were in a very bad state, especially me, but when we went to these appointments, we were only dealing with the immediate problems. We couldn’t address the underlying traumas because there were more urgent issues like “I want to die” or “I am having a terrible time with my parents.” So, the appointments were centered around those immediate issues, and the traumas couldn’t be treated, and we couldn’t start therapy because, as long as you are in an environment that makes you sick and is toxic, you can’t heal properly. But now, we have left that unstable and unsafe environment, and we are finally ready. I am finally ready to start proper therapy to heal the traumas because before, I would think I’m too unwell to go, and when I would feel better, I would think, “Well, I’m feeling fine now, so I don’t need to go.” But now, we understand that therapy is essential for healing and growth.
Aujourd’hui, Lia vous fait un (long) update de notre vie et notre santé mentale. On fera ça plus souvent, pour pouvoir laisser une trace de notre évolution
Qui suis-je ?
Je m’appelle Olympe, mais plus précisemment Lyli. Je suis atteinte du trouble dissociatif de l’identité (je suis diagnostiquée). C’est un trouble qui se forme durant l’enfance suite à des traumatismes et qui se caractérise par deux ou plus états de personnalités distincts au sein d’un même corps appelés Alters.
Je suis Lyli, l’hôte de notre système (l’alter qui est le plus souvent présent parmi tout notre petit groupe d’alter, en gros). C’est donc moi qui gère le plus les réseaux et la chaîne. Mais vous pouvez retrouver certains des alters de note système (qui s’appelle Olympe) dans plusieurs vidéos déjà disponibles !